Creative Blocks Or Epiphanies

Okay here it goes! Ive never done this blogging thiNG before but I will for this website because I feel like it could be a GOOD way to connect wit my people out there. Lets use this first blog to plant the first topic; Looking back..Have you ever been so secure within your talents and direction that you were blind to how much work you really had to do? I definitely have been that person. I never once (since music was the plan at 12 years old) doubted that I would one day be a star. I couldn't even sing in front of people when I decided I wanted this so I knew I had a lot of work to do, but I never doubted I would do what it takes. I went through life with this huge ego because of how sure I was of myself and my direction, I eventually got to the point where I was not just a singer-songwriter but a rapper as well. Thats when I started really gaining momentum, I wrote close to 20 songs in one year, made ghetto videos performing them in a car through out the following year, started getting recognized in public, had multiple offers for collaborations, connections, studio time, ect. then eventually was contacted by a Rosemary Garrett who offered to manage me and eventually taught me the ins and outs, put me on multiple stages, introduced me to all the right people and ultimately became my family while I became humbled to be a star in this wild dream I was living. I still had that entitled famous ego though and eventually became ungrateful, so I tried to find the next best step to take which landed me in an instant reality swap. Now I had a new girl and I was more in love with her than Id ever been with anyone. She didnt feel as strongly so when we fell apart, so did I. I left the relationship 2 months later with nothing. No confidence, no ego, no ambitions.. Just doubt and fear! Time went on, life got better and worse like it does but I noticed I I Still didn't feel the old certainty of my success like I used to feel! For the first time in my life I could see how "Normal People" see reality and that I was, even at my highest point in success, still so far from truly living my dream. I started hating all the songs I had written before, judging and criticizing myself. I went over 6 months without even thinking about writing music or talking to anybody from the industry. How lame right ?? It was dark and depressing because making money making music has always been the only plan to settle with. So if I lost all my progress this far how the fuck am I gonna start over!? I lost my groove man, didnt believe in myself any more. I wonder if any of you guys have reflected on what caused your biggest creative malfunction??? I want to hear about it if so, have you come up with anything that helps un jam your mind? What are your thoughts on my topic? Lets hear about people!

* Recently Ive found myself in spirts of inspired rage and Im regaining my footing. I started this website to open more doors for myself and other artists because its time to reconnect and reinvent. I have brand new Ideas and higher expectations. What you think?